You Did Not Attract Your Chronic Pain

You did not ask for this. You did not attract this. You owe no karmic debt.

You simply have chronic pain. Do not add more punishment to what you are already going through or allow others to chastise you with their words.

When I got diagnosed with Trigeminal Neuralgia, I had well-meaning friends from my old shamanic/energy community suggest that I was cursed.

I SHOULD get it removed now and many practitioners volunteered.

I spent a year seeing numerous practitioners

By the time I shared my diagnosis with others, I had been to my primary care physician many times, urgent care three times, an ear, nose and throat doctor four times, specialists, a neurologist who started me on a daily medication routine that helped reduce my symptoms, a neurosurgeon, physical therapy, acupuncture, osteopathic manipulation, Reiki sessions and weekly float tanks (sensory deprivation).

Well-meaning advice from others

Most of these were comforting and relaxing. I still had Trigeminal Neuralgia and people suggesting that I had attracted this for a reason. “Find the reason Gail and this will be gone.” I used to think that way until I had this level of daily pain. I did not attract this.

I also reviewed a past pain experience where I waited way too long to get help because I was looking for “the lesson.” I woke up one morning with a loss of about 65% range of motion in my elbow and had pain in the joint. Did I go and see a doctor right away?

No. When I shared why I could not straighten my arm, I received a whole lot of advice that I needed this experience to grow. Why? I had soul retrievals, curse removals, angel readings, and Reiki sessions to find out why. And I still could not move my elbow. This cracks me up now.

At the same time, I saw my primary care physician who referred me to a specialist. Did I look up the specialist first and find out his credentials? No. I just went. This specialist pressed some places on my back ever so gently after I got on his antique table that was about a foot wide. I was so tense thinking I might break his table and I am petite.

Two weeks later I saw him again where he gently pressed on my side and my back. NOT MY ELBOW. At the end of the session, I asked for a referral to an orthopedic surgeon. I was finally done trying to figure out the lesson in this and just wanted the use of my elbow again.

The surgeon and resolution

A week later the surgeon showed me pictures of my elbow with arthritis, a bone spur and a shadow that indicated a “loose body” of cartilage or bone stuck in the elbow joint. Because I had waited so long and it was late November, I could not get a surgery date until January 9th. I lost the range of motion in September. Lesson learned. Sigh.

Go see your doctor or health care providers when you need to. At the same time, feel free to examine all aspects of your illness or injury. As one of my favorite people told me about 10 years ago, “Fall back in love with western medicine Gail. You can combine all types of healing.”

You did not ask for this. You did not attract this. You owe no karmic debt.

You have chronic pain. Do not add more punishment to what you are experiencing.


Gail Sinclair, MHt, CNC is a hypnotherapist who helps those living with chronic pain go from discomfort to thriving by using hypnosis, pain management tools and resources.

 She is a Master Hypnotherapist, Nutritional Consultant, and a Reiki Master Teacher. She has over 20 years in healing work and is an international award-winning speaker.

 Gail lives in Portland, OR with her delightful husband, son, and cat. She can be found cooking, knitting, writing, and figuring out new ways to thrive with Trigeminal, and Occipital Neuralgia.

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