During a very loud and claustrophobic MRI and angiogram of my brain’s blood vessels, I used self-hypnosis to stay still for an hour. Especially after the tech closed the cage over my face and said, “Try not to move your head.”
I began relaxing from the top of my head and moving ever so slowly down my body. I had only reached my left eye and was suddenly in one of my favorite peaceful places. It’s a stone hut with doors wide open in each direction. I have a big fluffy chair I sit in and often go there when I feel too painful to be in this world.
Today I found myself with my left hand on a dial labeled worth and my right hand on one-labeled wealth. They were both set to “very low.” I knew to turn them up at the same time as worth and wealth were inextricably linked.
As I turned the dials, I was moved out of this time. I saw my mother, grandmother, great-grandmother and all the women on my mother’s side talking of “poor, destitute, and we are servant stories. It’s not safe to break out of the roles we were born into. It means excommunication and death.”
Then I moved forward to being suckled and understood that I drank “financial ruin, loss, fear, lack of worth and ultimately death” from my mother’s breasts.
I let my history go as the jackhammer sounds of the MRI helped break up the lineage stories. I thanked all of the mothers for what they had endured and had given me and I cut the lineage threads of lack of worth and wealth.
I came back into my body in this space and time. “Gail. Are you doing OK? You’ve got 45 minutes to go.” Fifteen minutes had passed.
I returned to see if there were any other lessons to be learned. The more we can distract from those things that typically exacerbate pain, the better we will feel.
I am Gail Sinclair a Master Hypnotherapist, Reiki Master Teacher, and Certified Nutritional Consultant who shares information on how to reduce your chronic persistent pain. I live with this discomfort and even though our pain may feel different I know what you are going through.
I mix words and magic as I write about chronic pain. I stir the souls of those who hurt and I share transformative tools to help manage your pain.
I want to share information and tools with women living with chronic pain.
Let’s refuse to let pain be in charge of our lives.